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It Is Not Work to Live, Its Live to Work

I recently finished furthering my education and am currently looking for a full time permanent job. It has left me reflecting on the things I learned during my time as a contract developer at RIM. As this was my first real job I had a lot to learn. The number one lesson that I learned is that I do in fact love what I do. Working there, which is an amazing company despite the news, I learned a lot of things about myself. I found myself enjoying working unpaid voluntary overtime because of the hope that what I did had the ability to affect millions of people’s lives or to be a part of something that was already doing so. Just to be a part of that meant more to me than nearly any raise they could have given me. This is most likely the same passion that I see people entering med school feeling. They have the ability to seriously affect peoples lives in what is hopefully a positive way. Some people reading this may think that it is egotistical to compare my profession of scientists and software engineers to the respected medical profession. Even though it is biased to say so as a member of the former demographic, I don’t think it is. The general feeling I get whenever I talk to people is that few actually know what it takes to build a piece of technology for their lives. Software engineers and computer scientist’s handiwork  is everywhere.  Everything from your microwave to your weigh-scale has, often quite complex, software on it. This has affected my initial job search in one of a few different ways. The first way is that I find I cannot settle for anything that will have little impact after working at a place like RIM. My time there has heightened my dreams and ambitions that anything that I deem less would be mundane and lack fulfillment. I do not wish to simply work just to put food on my plate. This is not to say that I cannot find fulfillment in smaller companies working on smaller projects. It is simply saying, for example, that I would have trouble going back to my first job of cleaning the fryers at KFC. I want to create. I want what I create, or help create, to change peoples lives.

This has affected my job search by making me wary of which companies I apply to. I have only been applying to companies that strike a cord with me by displaying a true belief in what they create. It is very easy to tell which companies collectively enjoy what they do compared to who works because they have to. Hopefully this selectivity on my part will pan out as this is the one point I really hope to not be forced to concede in the interest of continuing to have a place to live.


Developer Since 2005

B.Sc Computer Science

University of Lethbridge

Devin Forbes



My Paradoxical Creed

I believe there are, with no better word to describe them, things out there. Vast infinite things, that are currently beyond the scope or ability of the human mind to comprehend. Be that god, or whatever else one might believe, it doesn’t matter. Many religions teach that by getting to know that being, as an infinite presence, one can get to know oneself. Perhaps it is better to spend your time getting to know all the intricacies of yourself, before you attempt to tackle an understanding of such a being. That is, if you believe that those vast infinite ‘things’ are a being.

The bible preaches that god is infinite, omnipotent and omniscient. Perhaps we are but a twinkle in the eyes of god. It is my belief that god is but a twinkle in our eye, for we cannot currently hope to fathom an infinite being in any meaningful capacity. Even if the idea of that being is conjured from ourselves through apparently speaking from him (or possibly her… or it). Thus if we agree with the premise that he speaks or has spoken through us, the only capacity we can hope to understand this being is through what he apparently has said about himself. Since we are forced to assume the rest,  after reading various bibles and religious texts, I still know less about who god is than I know about any one of my friends. I do not believe you can understand him by what he tells you to be.  This does hold a fine possibility: Perhaps god wanted it that way.

People are not infinite, people are not omnipotent. As I write this with my heavy prescription glasses nestled nicely on my nose; people are also not omnipresent, as I cant barely see a few feet in front of me without assistance. Perhaps some believe that only by knowing a fraction of an infinite being that we are apparently derived from or in the image of, that that is all a person need know. If you are of this belief then I’m brought back to my calculus classes. What is a small portion of understanding held over infinite knowledge? If we are a portion of this infinity, then are we nothing?

This leads to the faith argument. I can have faith that a being exists, however it is difficult to fully believe that the exact teachings of any one religion is correct in all ways with metaphor and contradictions to cloud. With that it also implies it is impossible to know god as the knowledge about god is based on the teachings of those religions, where it is difficult to sift where perhaps god spoke through man, and where man interpreted. Therefore perhaps it is impossible to know myself… if I believe in god.


Why Can’t I Own A Canadian ?


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Christmas 2008: In Church

The Learning Curve to the Diagnosis of Self

We all write a book none will ever read. It has no revisions and no extensions. When it’s done the  person unable to buy the final copy is you; the one who wants it the most. The interesting part of any task that disallows revision is that the task gets both easier and is done better with time. This is the definition of the phrase practice makes perfect. It is unfortunate that the act of practice also by definition requires, on a steady basis, a trial and error approach. Also unfortunate is the fact that memory sometimes fails to serve what was written on a previous page. Often when a person attempts to look inside oneself and know what drives their thoughts and actions even they themselves come up with only guesses. It has been said that trying to understand oneself by its very nature changes the outcome of any understanding. There is an uncertainty principle in that the more someone knows of himself, the less he can actually be who he thinks he is. If this reasoning is taken as truth then any further writing on the topic is bound to be fruitless. However it fails to take into account the ability to know who you are while at the same time not needing to. It is with a firm belief that I know who I am and the things that I have done. It is with great certainty that I know every action and why it is taken, however it has not always been that way. I am still unsure as to whether I hope it always will be.

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I do not adhere to a schedule. I post when I have something to say. I'm a programmer who in my spare time enjoys contemplating the meaning of life, the universe and, everything. So there will be code as well as random little stories, essays and, musing about whatever interests me at the moment.